All the Little Things

  After this weekend I am awake and ready to kick some ass in life. It was so nice to reconnect with all the lovely people I haven't seen in forever! I always forget how many people that I love and how many people really do love me. Feeling blessed today. I will admit that Covid has made it hard for me to see people since everyone is like either afraid or wrapped in their own world.. me included. My plan starting now is to make sure to keep my connections and see my friends more because I do love them.  I did find out that I lost a friend last week. A past coworker passed away suddenly and I think that really shook me into fear. You really don't think about how important some people are in your life until you lose them. She was a ray of light and always pleasant. She was wise and open to sharing who she was and what she has done and I will truly miss her! I just told my other friend to tell her hi and then she was gone. Remember you don't get to live forever so make sure yo...

 It's another day in my world. I gotta tell you that listening to Kygo's set from Electric Daisy Carnival has really got my ready to kick some ass. not even just that but I stopped blocking out the joy in my life and I have embraced all the good. listening to music is on that list. I am not ashamed to say that I was feeling the music so much I started crying. Does that ever happen to you.. you just feel it pulsing through your body and you cant help but cry! thats my mood today. overwhelming joy and overwhelming emotion.. all the good emotions. these headphones I got are my favorite thing I own right now. I feel human again. not just human but myself. I think I was surrounded by so much negative energy that I really notice a difference. It's nice to be my positive self again. Pretty sure that I was going crazy for a minute and grasping at anything that made me the slight bit happy. Now I can make myself feel joy and not have to run to other people or things. my path to feel...

So I haven't posted in a long while but I thought now is the time. get ready for 2022. the time is coming where the real me is now going to be shown.    I woke up this morning and really felt like myself. I got my headphones on all day and I got to jam out to all the music. I have a feeling that things are going to fall into place. I am going to take one day at a time and enjoy all the small stuff.  I want to take life for what it is and really step into myself. It's funny because TikTok has actually been something that has inspired me to be a better me. All the people on there that post things showing that I am not alone in the way I feel. I wish that it wasn't on social media but that is the day and age we are in.  I have had a weird couple of years and stressful. I decided that I want no more of that. I will stay in my shell of positivity and joy. The bubble has been set and I will not let anyone pop it.  Maybe I am better off alone since I have a tendency to...

  I finally got to attend the pride parade for the first time this year. I was so excited and the experience did not disappoint. I was surrounded by people from all over celebrating who they are and with no cares!  Bright colors and an abundant amount of glitter engulfed this safe place for everyone.  I didn't know what to expect but I knew it would be a good time. This may sound cheesy but I was almost crying (happy tears) for the unity and harmony in everyone around me. I wish everyday could be the same as that day for everyone.  I don't believe that sex or gender should play a role in what you think of people. "Love everyone always," is my famous quote and I hope that is what I am remembered by. I believe that as long as everyone has a good heart and a willing to accept people the world would be much happier.  I felt that the pride parade encompassed those feelings. I saw so much love from everyone. When I was looking around I only saw smiles!!!...

I have realized that I have been neglecting my blog for sometime because I didn't want to write about how I was feeling but tonight I have come to face my demons.  This post isn't about working out or eating healthy but I believe that to have a healthy lifestyle you need to reflect and be emotionally healthy as well. So here we go... Things I have been thinking about: My divorce My divorce has been this haunting thing that I know that I need to take care of but just have been avoiding it. I don't actually know why and I keep making excuses for myself. I think that once I get a divorce I will feel much better but I have a fear of just letting go of something. That time in my life was so different then the rest and I fear that I will never find something like that again. (It wasn't all bad, just so everyone knows) I do believe that people are put in your life for that time they are in it and that is it. It's a sad realization but it makes me feel better...

This is a journey I am taking with all of you and now I need some crowd participation. I am sorta stuck on the food prep thing just because I hate to cook. I just keep making the same things and I have deflated my desire to eat the same stuff. I am looking for something easy and new (something to excite my tastebuds!)  Ab work was tiring today but on the plus side I did run almost a whole mile without stopping today. I did a little bit of an ab circuit and it didn't really do anything for me so I decided that I would make my own. Let me tell you, lower abs are killer to do. I really hate leg lifts but I did them. I am grateful that I can push myself.  I am working on getting a lower time for my mile because I eventually want to do a 5k. My sister's boyfriend is always doing 5k's and I know there are some pretty fun ones around.  Some 5k's I would like to do include: Race to Wrigley: May 6, 2018 Paws Chicago: June 3, 2018 Color Run Chicago: Somet...

So everyone I have a confession to make and I'm not proud of it. I cheated today. I was on my way to school with little to no time and I had an excruciating headache, and I cheated. Like I said I am not proud of this action but I have to admit it. I had McDonald's today. I got a large coke and fries with a crispy chicken sandwich. I scarfed the whole thing down and my headache went away.  With my busy life it is very hard to have time to eat even after preparing my weekly meals. This is something I have been struggling with and some days I skip meals (Not good!!!) Since I skip meals and have been working out and running around each day, my body is so hungry I start to get these very intense headaches. (which I hate very much.) These headaches unfortunately are the only thing that reminds me to eat.  I am sharing this so people know that I am not perfect and will never claim to be. I am just me and will not let this setback change anything. Other than this one ...