the first bite of winter...

 so its that time of the year where I start to get all in my feels. the snow is coming and the peace of the cold surrounds me. I feel like I am a different person this year. If you know me you know I have been through things that have molded me. I have faced so many fears this year and I am heading in the direction I wanted my whole life. 

I cant say that every day is wonderful but there are wonderful parts of everyday.

when you wake up in the morning and the first thing you see is darkness. for some this is such a negative thing but I am blesses to be able to wake up with the Sun. I get excited to see the Sun come up. I know its a start of a day that I get to see start to finish. we are past the point were the leaves have changed. those leaves are holding on to dear life not ready for change but there is no choice. The wind will blow and things will turn. Its my favorite part of the year. I always picture myself as the first leaf off the tree... ready for the adventure of the new year. I am ready to see the next chapter. 

once that snow hits (which we had our first snow fall) its magical. the winter cold dust that covers the world and brings peace. that cold crisp wind that bits your nose is a feeling that some people never get to feel. I love putting headphones on and listening to music standing outside watching the snow fall. Dont be afraid of the cold, dont be afraid of the dark. its a reset and a reminder that peace and love is around you. 

Magical time of the year, not just because of Christmas but because there is just a different vibe. the world and the people in it are synced to a different tune. I can feel it in the air. Its not something I can explain but if you know you know. get in tune with that and embrace this season. 

as I am writing this I am sitting in my room with my headphones on blasting some feel good vibes. hope you get to do the same thing. I just changed my bedsheets and comforter to my winter red. I am ready to bring in the season. I decided that other people are not going to bring down my vibe this year. I have wasted so many years waiting for people to get on my same level and feel the bite of the season and they never do. This year is about embracing the change and enjoying. I hope that you can step on the same train. 

I guess I am rambling about the weather and the winter wonderland feeling that I feel but its a feeling that I get every year and never get to enjoy. Its important to me to be surrounded by positivity this year and I refuse to be a part of negativity. This is my first steps. I feel like more changes are coming and I am ready. I am holding on tight.. finally a roller coaster ride I want to get on.

if you have made it this far I am impressed I know I am all over but if you feel any sorta way and can relate let me know. I cant be the only person that feels this way. its like Lorelei on Gilmore Girls, she gets it.. if only she wasn't a fictional character. 

all in all-feel that cold and let that be a reminder that change has come and the season is surround you. Think of love and peace. Bring the warmth from within.