Sloppy Seconds...

 


    For once I dont have too many thoughts going through my head. I finally got some closer on a mess of a situation. I dont really know why I did that to myself but in the end it turned out to be a present wrapped in a big ass bow. Some people come in your life to show you what you dont want. I must say that this person came into my life and showed me all the things I dont want and now I know what I want. It's sad but also eye opening and I am grateful for that. 

    I think that figuring out what you want out of your partner was always a hard thing for me to understand because I always thought I wasn't accepting of people if I didn't like what they did. I realized that people can live the life they want but you don't have to want the same things. In fact you are allowed to NOT like what other people like and you need to find your own healthy relationship. 

    It's been two months of this year and I have figured out what I want from my partner and the smaller things that I want for my life. Still don't have the purpose of my life, but there is still time. I dont think that I am dying tomorrow. Even if I do I then know that my life was to learn to the lessons that I learned. I'm still a bit stuck with where I want to live but that's ok because I like where I am right now. 

    Life is about lessons and I am learning some everyday. I never want to live a day without learning something. Good thing I have Mama in my life because she is full of what we call "random facts." LOL.

    I want to start something- a list of the things that I have learned and also a list of things I love about my life. Hopefully this list will grow/change everyday. 


Today I learned: I am stronger than I think I am. I can stick up for myself and make good choices. I really do love people and what I can learn from what other people see in life. 

Things I currently love: 

Music artist- Nic D. listen to him, he makes me happy my dance moves bust out LOL. Also really getting back into my EDM music- where I feel most at home. 

all natural products- no chemicals please

Tuesday night trivia- team name Britney's Bitches ( hey 7th out of 18 isn't bad)

Friday night grocery shopping! less people.

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