All the Little Things

       For once I dont have too many thoughts going through my head. I finally got some closer on a mess of a situation. I dont really know why I did that to myself but in the end it turned out to be a present wrapped in a big ass bow. Some people come in your life to show you what you dont want. I must say that this person came into my life and showed me all the things I dont want and now I know what I want. It's sad but also eye opening and I am grateful for that.       I think that figuring out what you want out of your partner was always a hard thing for me to understand because I always thought I wasn't accepting of people if I didn't like what they did. I realized that people can live the life they want but you don't have to want the same things. In fact you are allowed to NOT like what other people like and you need to find your own healthy relationship.       It's been two months of this year and I have figured out what...

       Today is the type of day that I cant stand. the day where I contemplate life and wondering why I am here. Im in a weird mood hating everything and wondering why I think the way that I think. its a mess day. I want to cry or scream or run away. I feel weak and lost. I just want someone to give me some answers, but now that I'm an adult I know that no one really has the answers. We are all lost all the time. We all make choices and wonder why or what if. That doesn't bring me solace or peace in the loneliness.       Today is the type of day that I don't like my choices and really dig deep and overthink. I feel that all my choices have brought me nothing but the same pain. I sit and listen to sad songs so that I am reminded that I am not the only person that has had these feelings. I need to remember that everyone goes through the rough patches. I'm just wondering what I have to do to bring the good. I try everyday to eat right and be nice to ...