All the Little Things

  After this weekend I am awake and ready to kick some ass in life. It was so nice to reconnect with all the lovely people I haven't seen in forever! I always forget how many people that I love and how many people really do love me. Feeling blessed today. I will admit that Covid has made it hard for me to see people since everyone is like either afraid or wrapped in their own world.. me included. My plan starting now is to make sure to keep my connections and see my friends more because I do love them.  I did find out that I lost a friend last week. A past coworker passed away suddenly and I think that really shook me into fear. You really don't think about how important some people are in your life until you lose them. She was a ray of light and always pleasant. She was wise and open to sharing who she was and what she has done and I will truly miss her! I just told my other friend to tell her hi and then she was gone. Remember you don't get to live forever so make sure yo...

 It's another day in my world. I gotta tell you that listening to Kygo's set from Electric Daisy Carnival has really got my ready to kick some ass. not even just that but I stopped blocking out the joy in my life and I have embraced all the good. listening to music is on that list. I am not ashamed to say that I was feeling the music so much I started crying. Does that ever happen to you.. you just feel it pulsing through your body and you cant help but cry! thats my mood today. overwhelming joy and overwhelming emotion.. all the good emotions. these headphones I got are my favorite thing I own right now. I feel human again. not just human but myself. I think I was surrounded by so much negative energy that I really notice a difference. It's nice to be my positive self again. Pretty sure that I was going crazy for a minute and grasping at anything that made me the slight bit happy. Now I can make myself feel joy and not have to run to other people or things. my path to feel...

So I haven't posted in a long while but I thought now is the time. get ready for 2022. the time is coming where the real me is now going to be shown.    I woke up this morning and really felt like myself. I got my headphones on all day and I got to jam out to all the music. I have a feeling that things are going to fall into place. I am going to take one day at a time and enjoy all the small stuff.  I want to take life for what it is and really step into myself. It's funny because TikTok has actually been something that has inspired me to be a better me. All the people on there that post things showing that I am not alone in the way I feel. I wish that it wasn't on social media but that is the day and age we are in.  I have had a weird couple of years and stressful. I decided that I want no more of that. I will stay in my shell of positivity and joy. The bubble has been set and I will not let anyone pop it.  Maybe I am better off alone since I have a tendency to...